Well, it’s another year and time for another commitment to get myself healthy. I have a lot going on this year and I want to start it off right. I will be moving into our house, graduation with an MBA and getting married all in the next 5 months!! I think if there were ever a time to get into a healthy lifestyle it would be now.

I don’t want to call this a resolution, per say, just because I know this is something that needs to stay for a lifetime, which is honestly where I struggle. With so many great things happen this year, I want to be able to enjoy them and not worry about my confidence and battle with my weight. I want this to be a positive year. There are sure to be several ups and downs and struggles and triumphs and failures and stress for sure! What better time to take a day by day approach to my healthy and every other part of my life.

I am, by nature, a planner. My wedding is essentially planned, other than a few details here and there, so that is one stress that I do not need to worry about. What I am worried about it starting all this up again. I tend to disappoint myself when I get excited and ready for a fresh start. I am not sure how to overcome that disappointment and all I can do is try to work through this and make it a change for life. Not just a get fit for the wedding, not just a lose weight fast diet. I have to force myself to begin living a lifestyle that I am not used to.

I have to create a healthy lifestyle that will allow me to still live in the real world. I can’t swear off fast food, because my world consists of fast food. I can make better choices at those places, but I am not now and will never be the kind of person that will force a group to go to one place over another, or force them to take me somewhere else just so I can get food. To make this work for me, I have to incorporate my everyday life into this healthy choice I am making.

I have a fiancé who doesn’t have to eat salad and grilled chicken everyday to stay thin and I can’t force him into this lifestyle, which is all the more reason to create a more feasible solution that I can live with. I don’t think there is plan out there that is one size fits all and that is why those plans always fail for me. I need to realize that I am different than anyone else and because of that have to create my own plan that will allow me the flexibility to live a normal life.

I don’t want to become a fitness model or a size zero, I will go ahead and put this out there, I just don’t want to commit to something like that because I want to enjoy my life and not spend every waking moment in the gym and eating carrots. I do want to get in shape and feel more confident and with a little work and planning I can make that happen.

I am going to try and make this blog last a little longer than the previous attempt. I don’t want to commit to writing everyday because I just know that my reality won’t allow that, but I will promise to write consistently and hopefully with good updates.

I have written down my current weight and have a goal in mind, but I am just not comfortable sharing that publically yet. I know that I have a good ways to go, but I also know that my goal is attainable and realistic.

Yesterday morning I woke up at 4am to get to the gym and get my workout in. It felt great having it done already! It was so nice to go home and just relax and concentrate on getting dinner ready. I am hoping that I can keep this up and get into the gym before work. I think that it will help me make better decisions throughout the day and overall give me more energy to make it through the sometimes boring workday.

Overall the day wasn’t terrible, so I will call it a success. It was by no means the best, but baby steps are the key.